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Editor's Note | |
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Preface | |
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Acknowledgments | |
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Introduction | |
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My Story | |
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Seeing Him as All-Powerful and the Center of My World | |
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Yes, but � | |
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I Love Him | |
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I Miss Him (or I Need Him) and Can't Live without Him | |
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He Is Everything to Me | |
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It Will Hurt to Leave Him | |
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I Have to Do What He Wants or He Won't Love Me | |
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I Have to Do What He Wants Sexually or He Won't Love Me (or He'll Find Someone Else) | |
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I Have to Tell Him Everywhere I Go and What I Do So He Can Reach Me or He Shows Up Unexpectedly Because He Loves Me | |
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If I Try to Leave, He Will Kill Me or My Children | |
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If I Divorce Him He Will Take My Children from Me or Will Have the Children Alone for Visitation | |
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He Is a Good Provider | |
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Denying and Minimizing His Behavior | |
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Yes, but � | |
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He's Not All Bad or He Has a Really Sweet and Wonderful Side | |
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We Have Had Some Good Times | |
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He Only Yells at Me Because He Loves Me | |
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My Children Need Their Father | |
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He Doesn't Hurt the Children | |
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He Doesn't Mean to Hit Me | |
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At Least He Doesn't Hit Me | |
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He Doesn't Lie to Me | |
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At Least I Don't Have It as Bad as Others | |
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He Must Love Me-He Gets Jealous When I Talk to or Spend Time with Other People | |
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He Must Love Me-He Wants to Be with Me All the Time | |
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It Doesn't Matter That I Quit Doing Things I Enjoy or That He Made Me Quit My Job | |
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It Doesn't Matter What Other People Think or My Friends and Family Don't Understand | |
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It Doesn't Matter What Names He Calls Me | |
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It Doesn't Matter That He Insults My Religion, Race, or Ethnicity | |
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It Doesn't Matter That He Flirts with Other Women | |
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It Doesn't Matter That He Withholds Affection When He's Angry | |
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He's Learned His Lesson by My Leaving-Now We Can Get Back Together and Everything Will Be Okay | |
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This Can't Be Happening-I Am Not One of "Those Women" | |
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Sooner or Later, He'll See What He's Doing and Stop | |
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Believing I Can Save Him | |
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Yes, but | |
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I Can Change Him | |
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I Can Save Him | |
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He Needs Me or He Can't Live without Me | |
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I Have to Make This Work-I Don't Want to Be a Failure | |
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I've Already Put So Much Energy into This Relationship That Would Go to Waste | |
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I've Already Put So Much Energy into This Relationship-If I Leave, Someone Else Will Benefit from My Hard Work | |
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Sacrificing My Self | |
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Yes, but � | |
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Lie Has Low Self-Esteem | |
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I Don't Want to Hurt Him | |
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Everyone Else in His Life Has Let Him Down-I Am All He Has | |
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I Have to Stay or He Will Kill Himself | |
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I Have to Forgive Him | |
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I Must Stay, I Promised God | |
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Blaming Myself for His Behavior-Believing I Deserve It | |
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Yes, but � | |
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If Only I Could Just Love Him Enough, He Would Change | |
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If Only I Didn't Make Him Angry or Provoke Him | |
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If Only I Were More Attractive/Thinner/Smarter/More Interesting/a Better Communicator/More Fun | |
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I Made My Bed, Now I Have to Lie in It | |
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I Never Do Anything Right-I Always Let Him Down/Disappoint Him/Say and Do the Wrong Thing/Blow It | |
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Blaming Outside Forces for His Behavior | |
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Yes, but � | |
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If Only He Could Quit Drinking/Doing Drugs/Gambling/Having Affairs | |
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If Only His Boss/Teacher/Coach Wouldn't Put Him Under So Much Stress | |
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The Devil Made Him Do It | |
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If Only My Family and Friends Would Treat Him Better or Be More Accepting and Accommodating | |
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Accepting Male Privilege | |
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Yes, but � | |
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Men Should Make All the Decisions | |
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Men Should Control All the Money and Property or Men Should Earn More Money Than Women | |
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Men Have Fragile Egos | |
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Men Don't Know How to Express Love or It's Just the Way Men Are | |
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It's Okay for Him to Demand or Force Me to Have Sex | |
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Giving Up on Myself | |
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Yes, but� | |
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I Have No Choice of There's No Way Out or There's Nothing I Can Do | |
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No One Else Will Ever Love Me or This Is Better Than Being Alone | |
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At Least I Know What to Expect | |
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At Least I'm Having Sex | |
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It's Too Late to Start Over or I Can't Make It on My Own | |
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No One Cares about Me Anyway | |
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I'm a Stupid, Worthless Nothing | |
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I Am Embarrassed and Ashamed to Be in This Situation | |
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I Have Nowhere and No One to Turn To | |
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I Can't Find a Job or I Have No Skills | |
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I Can't Care for My Children | |
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If I Try to Do Something, It May Backfire and Make the Situation Worse | |
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Someone Else Will See What He Is Doing and Save Me | |
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Educational Tools | |
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What Is Abuse? | |
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Profile of an Abuser | |
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Cycle of Abuse | |
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Chart of Coercion | |
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Safety Planning | |
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Additional Resources | |
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Hotlines and Web Sites | |
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Recommended Readings | |
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Notes | |