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| Foreword | |
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| Acknowledgments | |
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| A Long-Awaited Son | |
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| Father as a Young Rebel | |
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| My Nanny | |
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| A Nice Neighborhood | |
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| Preoccupied Parents | |
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| Once upon a Time | |
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| Seven "Grandmas" and Ten "Grandpas" | |
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| My First Year in School | |
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| Values Coming from Picture Books | |
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| The Gathering Winds of the Storm | |
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| Red Guards at Home | |
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| "Good" Reasons against "Bad" People | |
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| Behind the Bedroom Door | |
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| The Early Storm Barely Hits Our Family | |
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| Surviving the Storm | |
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| A Legendary Man | |
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| The Rebels Didn't Get What They Wanted | |
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| A Family Torn Apart | |
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| Visiting My Parents in Their Labor Camps | |
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| My Sister in the Countryside | |
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| Life for "Art's" Sake | |
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| Nanny Gets a New Job | |
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| Brainwashing at School | |
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| Home, Sweet Home | |
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| Rice Pudding Almost Leads to Suicide | |
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| A Former Member of the Communist Party | |
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| "A Man Can Die Once, and Only Once!" | |
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| The Emperor's New Clothes | |
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| 100 Years after the Paris Commune | |
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| My Mother Loses Her Freedom Again | |
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| Six Families in One House | |
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| A Trip to Visit My Redetained Mother | |
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| It Was Too Late | |
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| "What Do You Want to Be?" | |
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| It Was More Than Just Learning English | |
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| A Television Crew from Hawaii | |
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| "Nine-Pound Granny" | |
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| Mother Comes Home | |
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| Thousands of Miles for Nothing | |
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| "We, the True Marxists ..." | |
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| My Sister's Long Journey | |
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| "Good Will Be Rewarded with Good, and Evil with Evil" | |
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| Letters That Helped Others | |
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| Not Ready to Make the Pledge | |
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| Millions Arise after One Man's Death | |
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| Life Goes On | |
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| My First Job | |
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| Over Two Hundred Billion Hours Wasted | |
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| Back to Work Again at the Age of Sixty-three | |
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| New Students: The Hope of the Nation | |
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| "I Want to Right This Wrong!" | |
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| The Forbidden Fruit | |
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| A Chilly Spring | |
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| People First | |
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| "Democracy Lost" | |
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| Bitter Love | |
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| To Be, or Note to Be | |
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| The Answer Is Blowing in the Wind | |
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| Challenge behind Death | |
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| Two Worlds | |
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| "I Have No Other Choice, Because I'm the Commissar!" | |
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| "Purifying the Party": An Impossible Task | |
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| The "Red," "Black," or "Golden" Road | |
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| It's Time to Go! | |
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| The Departure | |
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| Epilogue | |
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| Index | |