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Shame of Survival Working Through a Nazi Childhood

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ISBN-10: 0271034483

ISBN-13: 9780271034485

Edition: 2009

Authors: Ursula Mahlendorf

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While we now have a great number of testimonials to the horrors of the Holocaust from survivors of that dark episode of twentieth-century history, rare are the accounts of what growing up in Nazi Germany was like for people who were reared to think of Adolf Hitler as the savior of his country, and rarer still are accounts written from a female perspective. Ursula Mahlendorf, born to a middle-class family in 1929, at the start of the Great Depression, was the daughter of a man who was a member of the SS at the time of his early death in 1935. For a long while during her childhood she was a true believer in Nazism-and a leader in the Hitler Youth herself.This is her vivid and unflinchingly honest account of her indoctrination into Nazism and of her gradual awakening to all the damage that Nazism had done to her country. It reveals why Nazism initially appealed to people from her station in life and how Nazi ideology was inculcated into young people. The book recounts the increasing hardships of life under Nazism as the war progressed and the chaos and turmoil that followed Germany's defeat.In the first part of this absorbing narrative, we see the young Ursula as she becomes an enthusiastic member of the Hitler Youth and then goes on to a Nazi teacher-training school at fifteen. In the second part, which traces her growing disillusionment with and anger at the Nazi leadership, we follow her story as she flees from the Russian army's advance in the spring of 1945, works for a time in a hospital caring for the wounded, returns to Silesia when it is under Polish administration, and finally is evacuated to the West, where she begins a new life and pursues her dream of becoming a teacher.In a moving Epilogue, Mahlendorf discloses how she learned to accept and cope emotionally with the shame that haunted her from her childhood allegiance to Nazism and the self-doubts it generated.
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Book details

List price: $36.95
Copyright year: 2009
Publisher: Pennsylvania State University Press
Publication date: 9/20/2010
Binding: Paperback
Pages: 376
Size: 6.13" wide x 8.63" long x 1.04" tall
Weight: 0.990
Language: English

Ursula Mahlendorf earned her PhD in German Literature from Brown University in 1958 and spent the rest of her professional life teaching in the German Department and Women's Studies Program at the University of California, Santa Barbara.

List of Illustrations
My Family and the Nazis, 1929-1936
A Small Quarry Town, 1936-1938
Kristallnacht and the Beginning of World War II, 1938-1940
Today Germany Belongs to Us-Tomorrow, the Whole World, 1940-1941
You are the Future Leadership of the Hitler Youth, 1941-1942
Between Conformity and Rebellion, 1942-1944
In the Belly of the Beast: The Teacher Seminary, 1944-1945
The Big Wheels Are Leaving for the West, January-March 1945
We Don't Kill, We Heal: The Russian Invasion, 1945
My Hometown Becomes Polish, 1945-1946
Refugee in the Promised Land of the West: Return to School, 1946-1948
Finding an Intellectual Home: University, 1949-1954
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